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fore-note: this blog, hopefully, is usually light, funny & quick!
I avoid politics & religion on principle.
Not because I don't have opinions, but because I do.
Today's blog is a little out of character, but I have decided to post it anyway.
An unusual Saturday morning. No plans.
I worked in my office, but felt chilled,
& out of nowhere, decided to sit outside in the sun.
Now, I never do this.
I put on ugly hat and sat down in direct sunlight.
As soon as I sat, I heard a noise.
At first I thought it was a dog whining.
It was off and on, kind of muffled.
I started to do my daily morning prayers, a sort of list & meditation.
I heard it again, listened & realized that ...
the noise was crying, sobbing actually.
The kind kids do when they are that point where they can't stop.
I could hear the pain & anguish underneath the noise.
I don't think it was a child, but it was heartbreaking.
I don't think it was a child, but it was heartbreaking.
I wanted to help, but I couldn't tell where it was coming from.
I looked next door, over at the pool, upstairs,
but couldn't find the source.
I am totally deaf in my right ear so have trouble locating sounds.
I wanted to say aloud, are you okay?
And maybe I should have, but ...
my gut feeling at the time was that it was
deeply personal & painful, and that I would be intrusive.
deeply personal & painful, and that I would be intrusive.
Easy to second guess now, but ...
at the time I decided to sit & do my prayers.
Right as I sat, the wail was louder as if in renewed pain.
I selfishly thought, no way you can pray listening to that.
I started, but asked God to help her/him,
to give comfort & love to that hurting soul.
It was suddenly quiet. Honest!
I listened to that silence & continued asking for guidance
and direction, love & comfort to my hurting neighbor.
and direction, love & comfort to my hurting neighbor.
Quiet.
I continued on with my own prayers and meditation,
but resurfaced to that quiet again & again.
You may say coincidence. Maybe.
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